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Friday, March 23, 2007 10:50 PM
I don't have to stress the obvious that it has been a long time since I last posted. A big problem for me now, is that I dont know how to pick things up from where I left off. I dont know what to say, where to start or how to even begin.
And so in my attempt to revive this almost forgotten blog, I thought of doing something different. Diversion from the typical me-narrating-my-silly-life. Hopefully, you would help me out in this one.
Here's how it goes.
You ask me a question, anything..personal, seryoso, loko kahit pang autograph na tanong.. Note: Anything that doesnt fall under bastos, sarcasm, or academics. I'll try to answer them. Hehe. Be open in asking.. it would kill neither you nor I.
I dont know why I have a sudden urge for this. But I think it's worth a try.
Pop the "question" in my tagboard.. or sa ym!, friendster, multiply.. anywhere that I'm connected to. And if you can, pass this "uncausely" cause to others.. Haha. :-)
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Sunday, December 24, 2006 11:33 PM
Few minutes are left till the christmas eve. My dad's watching TV. My sister and my mom went up to their rooms..probably they are asleep. And I'm in front of my PC, finally updating this blog!!
I'm supposed to be in church by now. But since noone in this house seemed to be awake, I'll be going tomorrow morning. Then, I would have some company. Both of my parents are worn down. They woke up early to go to the market. Then my dad went with Me and my sis to the mall to do some last-minute shopping. After lunch, we were all busy preparing food. I spent most of the day going back and forth the kitchen and the dining room. It's quite stupid that we prepared so much, yet only the 4 of us will be eating together tonight. I'm not even sure if by that time everyone would be awake.
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Nasimot na lahat ng barya dito sa bahay. Tumigil na ang mga nangangaroling, sa wakas. Hanep. Bagong pambansang christmas carol.."Pasko Na-slash-Boom Tarat". There was a group who came over to our gates..I think they're drunk..or sabog lang talaga sila.. They banged the gates..How dare them to say "Namamasko po?".. I was so annoyed. Pag hindi mo pa binigyan, ikaw pang kaiinisan. Tsktsk.
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30 minutes na lang. I better turn this PC off. Christmas na mamaya. :)
I'm wishing everyone a great Christmas! Enjoy the holidays!
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Sunday, September 10, 2006 7:51 AM
People have a way of saying that rain is a blessing. Pag inulan ang graduation nyo or birthday mo or any special event, blessing un. I never believed in that. [Who does anyway??] Never did I saw the connection of water droplets to any form of blessing [e.g. money, new clothes, fafabol, good health..]. To me, it is just an expression of optimism (common to many Noypis).. Finding something good out of bad.
But if it is true, that rain is indeed a blessing, then I had just been enormously
blessed last night. The rain hit hard, with me and my friends not knowing.[since we're inside the mall] We were surprised to see the roads in SM and even a part of EDSA flooded. It was past 9 and all of us were still stranded..
Rain, rain and more rain..wow..God must have love me..
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It was actually my birthday yesterday. First birthday in my "college" years.[ kelangan tlagang iemphasize??] Amazingly, it fell on a weekend, so I got to celebrate with my highschool buddies. Triple celebration nga eh, since 2 of my other friends were also having their birthday. A few came; there were only ten of us. Mr. Taro didnt even come..[uuyyy, sino un?] But who cares anyway??(Uh..duh?? me??..asa pa!! ) I had a blast being with the ten wonderful people who came.
It was the typical eat-and-watch-movie gimmick.. Sosyal kame this time, Shakey's kami kumain(may menu na, di lang sa fastfood!) Then we watched "The Wicker Man" which sucked!!! It sucked so much that it deserves a spot in any list of worst films ever.
We didn't know that it had flooded. The boys ate dinner and us, girls, did a bit of
shopping, as we wait for the rain to stop. Eh lalo atang lumakas. But everyone returned home safely naman, un nga lang si Albert inabot ata ng 11.
Nothing special happened after that. And I was not expecting for anything more. The lil'get-together was a blessing in itself (charriinngg!!) The simple fact that I didn't spend my bday alone, sobrang saya na ako dun.
Ay, meron pa lang nangyari..Share ko lang. I got to chat with Mr. Taro again..after more or less 2 months..Un na kaya ung blessing?? Yuck naman! Akala ko ba love ako ni Lord..Wla bang mas may kwentang blessing na maibibigay sakin..ung tipong may magandang idudulot sa pagkatao ko at pakikinabangan ko?? (hwahahaha..)
Cheering competition nga pala mamaya. Get ready Araneta.. Susugod na ang mga ISKO.. (Bka mafocus sakin ang camera at madiscover ako.. )Sana manalo ang UP Pep mamaya..UP FIGHT!!
** To Elaine, Kath, Ledg, Allan, Albert, Jerome, Mich and Lalaine..thanx for celebrating with me, even though the movie sucked, rained hard and you all had a hard time going home..**
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006 7:23 PM
???..Help..???
As early as April, just a month after the release of UPCAT results.. I've already put into mind to shift from Tourism to Business Admin.. O di ba? Confident!! Ni hindi pa ako nakakatungtong sa UP.. may plano na akong magshift ng course. At that time, it seemed easy. I thought, all I have to do is to keep my grades high and get subjects that B.A. would credit. Soon enough, the peach colored CBA building would welcome me to its doors.. It was a semi well-thought plan. But once the semester started, [ nabuksan ang mga mata ko sa hirap ng pagiging iska] I realized that my plans are heading to a dead-end..
Reason #1 MATH MAYHEM. Kung hindi mo pa nagagawang i-curse o kainisan man lang ang prof mo sa math O KAYA ang sarili mo, pwes, ikaw malamang ay isang henyo. Malamang graduate ka ng isang science high school, engineering ang course mo o kaya friend mo talaga sina x and y. :) Math17 ang sakit sa ulo ng nakararaming freshie. Ako, Math11 lang naman. Hindi sa hirap ako at kaunti na lang at mamatay na ako sa paghihikahos. Pero bumagsak ako sa first exam. It's depressing, insulting and threatening. Parang isang malaking sampal sakin at sa kapasidad ng utak ko ang bumagsak. Pano pa kaya kung Business Ad ako?? Eh mas madugo ang Math dun. And let's say mabiyayaan ako ng
grade na tres, ewan ko lang kung iprioritize ako ng BA as a shiftee. :)
Reason #2 EFFORT not ENOUGH!.. "I tried so hard..and got so far..but in the end, it doesn't even matter.." Anthem ko yan ngayon.. at feel ko hanggang mag-graduate ako. Kung dati nung high school, ang goal ko ay makaperfect sa exam..ngayon, goal ko ay pumasa. Ewan ko nga kung bakit eh. Todo review ako, pero pagdating sa mga exams.. wala. Gusto ko ng iyakan, pero dinadaan ko na lang sa tawa. Kung dati, lagi akong nasa taas ng class standing, ngayon hindi na. Wah!!
So..would i still try shifting?? I feel like it would just be a waste of time. Mahirap ng magkamali.
Wahhh!! Nababaliw na ako sa kakaisip. This is a crucial decision. My plans for shifting are still on hold.. Di pa naman tapos ang first sem..so pag-iisipan ko pa..
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Saturday, June 17, 2006 10:05 PM
Words..I am lost for words..
I'm just so overwhelmed with my first two days of classes, which were last Thursday and Friday. . Di ko maexplain..nakakapagod..nakakatuwa..nakakabaliw..but really fulfilling. Wala pa namang halos formal discussions. I just met my profs and classmates. The two days were basically practice runs for the real thing next week. Patikim kung baga. Pinaexperience samin ang tumawid from CAL to Palma, sumakay ng walang kamatayang ikot at toki, problemahin kung sapat ba ang 15 minutes para makakaabot sa susunod na klase sa kabilang dulo ng campus[masaklap toh!], mafreak-out na lahat ng classmate mo sa isang subject ay higher years lahat..[mas masaklap!], matrauma kung terror ung prof..ayun..
Everything is different..from St. Mary's that is. It's a totally different world. For one, wlang dasal. Walang maarteng greeting..during Eng1..my first class ever!.. nagplay sa head ko ang "May the Lord reward you" nung dinismiss kami. Haha.. You walk into a class and you dont know a single soul. You feel a sense of inferiority.. pero it doesnt trample on your ego.. kxe alam mong wlang magpapakasuperior.. pantay-pantay lahat..
I havent eaten any lunch yet in the campus. Kasalanan ng super-intact kong schedule. Akala ko advantage un.. Nakakapagod pa la.. Pero at least, di ako nagsasayang ng oras sa pagtambay.. Di pa nga ako nakakatungtong ng Casaa. Mirakulo ba ito?? Nalilipasan na nga ako ng gutom eh. Magka-ulcer kaya ako?? Nung vacant ko last Thursday..[vacant din ni Nikoz, Mark, Dycueco at Kathryn..sama-sama kami]..kinain ko lang ay Tortillos..
It was only 2 days.. but the stories seem so endless.. ganito lang cguro pag may bagong nangyayari sa buhay.. I realized that it's not as scary as I thought. Sanayan lang talaga..I mean, I do have to go to college right?.. Nagkataon lang at dinestino ako ni God sa UP. Alam ko, he has a reason for it. Am I deserving of it? I think, yes. And I'll be more than willing to accept the challenges; the ridiculous schedules..the terror-profs.. the long exams.. the 2-inch-thick readings for my Kas2.. the feeling of solitude[pag walang frend].. I know at the end of the line, all the hardwork will pay off..
For now, nanamnamin ko muna ung sakit ng lowerbody ko kakasakay ng jeep..kakaupo sa classes.. at kakalad.. :)
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006 8:59 PM
I went to school today.
I waited for NIkoz, dumating pero umalis agad.. di man lang nagpakita sakin..tsktsk..
I wasnt able to eat lunch coz I was waiting for someone[ulol!!!] wla lang talaga akong kasama..
Di ako makalibot, again wala akong kasama, at ayokong makita si f@3^$..
Ilang beses ko nga ata cyang nakasalubong..Di ko lang magawang tumingin sa kanya. Siya rin..walang pakealam. Hwahaha.
Nainis ako sa sarili ko. Isa na ko sa mahabang listahan ng mga napaiyak, pinaniwala at iniwan nya. At ung ibang tao na nagsabi dati na walang mangyayari samin.. ayon.. matunog nilang nasasabi ngaun.."Sabi na nga ba eh.." Kita ko un sa mata nila. Magaling ako eh.
Kainjanan nga nangyari ngaun eh. Ininjan ako ni f@3^$.. ni nikoz[kaxe may pinuntahan pa].. aun.. i ended up working alone sa itrc for 4 hours..
Bumaba ako around 2:30..may sumingit sa computer na pinagttrabahuhan ko.. God must really love me kaxe andun c Sir Mangu and Fatima.. Yup! c Fatima. At sa sobrang pagkaoverwhelmed ko.. umiyak ako sa harap nila.. Mahal ko c Sir Mangu and Fatima.. Cry baby na ako..fine.. Pero maxyado ng nasupress ung emotions ko kanina.. Biro mo, daanan ka lang. Haha..
Bumalik din ako sa ITRC. Kupal ung printer.. isa-isa mong ilalagay ung paper.. ung dapat na 15 minutes of printing naging isang oras.
At least may progress na sa yearbook.
At may progress na din cguro sa susunod na araw sa kawalang kwentahang pinagsasabi ko..
At lalong magkakaprogress sa mga ipopost ko..
Emotionally unstable lang tlaga cguro ako ngaun. Haha! :)
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Tuesday, June 13, 2006 7:51 PM
TODAY
was the freshman orientation. I was scheduled in the morning. I arrived sa theater together with Conanan[cant type his name eh], Frances, Nikoz, Elaine and Kath. Wuhoo!
I badly want to join the UP Pep Squad. Feel ko ang saya nila. Too bad, it takes me days to familiarize steps..tsktsk..asa pa akong matanggap. Drummers and dancers lang daw kelangan.. di ba nila kelangan ng tagasigaw man lang?? Unang-una akong mag-aaply.
After the orientation sa theater, nagwalkathon ang college ko..dun lang naman sa likod ng theater destinasyon namin. I met my blockmates. Okei naman sila. Pero mas gus2 ko sa kabilang block. 2 lalaki. Sa block ko, isa lang. Saklap noh? 3 lang guys na freshman sa course ko. Crush ko nasa kabilang block. Kaso ang panget ng name nya.."mark".. peace tau conanan! :) kasaklapan tlaga oh. gus2 nyo pa ng kasaklapan? meron sa block ko, girl naman.. i find her friendly. kso i asked her name.. sabi nya Maki.. wow! ano ba pinalalabas ni lord?.. chinachallenge ako ah..
At dahil nabored ako.. at sobrang wlang signal sa mga buildings sa UP.[di ko malaman kung intentional ba un pra wlang matetempt magtext] lumabas ako ng building..khit ongoing ang program.. [malaya na ako!].. at gaya ng inaasahan ko.. flood of messages..
Kak's text really gave me the fright.. "Mop, kakagalng lang namin sa skul..I think you need to know something".. Di naman ako slow.. Alam ko agad na it's about him. So tawag naman ako. It didnt even take 5 minutes before ako umiyak. Haha. Nazero na ang natitira kong self esteem. I feel so low and stupid. Take note: Music video dating.. Nglalakad ako..hawak ko ung fone ko..kausap c kak..kakatapos lang ulan..basa ung streets..and I was crying..di exag ah.. konti lang..humahangin..wla akong pake kahit binubusinahan na ako ng mga kotse kasi nasa gitna ako ng parking lot..
"I feel so victimized".. Dun na tlaga ako nagbreakdown. Khit pa cguro pathetic pakinggan.. I dont know how else would I put into words what I felt. Napaniwala ako sa mga bagay na akala ko totoo.. Umasa.. and lied to.. May process nga yan eh.. parang prutas.. may iba't ibang level.. hilaw-hinog-bulok.. of course ung in-betweens pa.. sa ngaun, im certified nasa bulok stage.
pu""a..g""o,f""k.. oy di ko toh gawain.. kung meron dapat sabihan nyan.. ay ako na lang.. haha.. tanga kxe eh..
Hindi ako galit.. bitter?? ewan.. Basta ipinagdadasal ko na lang, di dumami ang species nya. Or better yet, sana tumino na lang sya. Para nman magkaroon ng signifance ang existance nya sa mundo. I know he's a good person..sobra.. di lang nya cguro alam kung pano magpahalaga..may pagkagago rin.
Sa ngaun, hindi ko hinihiling na may dumating na bago..kaxe kung meron man, di ko alam kung may kapasidad pa kong maniwala sa mga sasabihin nya.. or would i even risk my feelings again. Tsaka sa itsura ng college ko na 3 lang ang lalaki.. ewan ko lang..
Basta. Bukas punta ko na skul. Bahala na.
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Im still working on few details. :)
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